|Dress: DIY/Me, Docs: Shoebuy, Tee and Jacket: DOTS, Necklace: Rummage|
Well, I can't say my absence from the internet was restful. Although I can say it was longer than it was supposed to be. Last week I had a vacation from work and had planned to go see my parents. We don't see each other much during the holidays so I always go down before or after Christmas to make up for it. I had planned to schedule some posts for the time I was gone, but last Sunday my mom had an emergency and was sick all week. She's fine now but our holiday got cancelled.
It was kind of a good thing, though. For some reason, the holidays supremely depressed me this year and that's odd because (while I am NOT religious) I do get very excited and wrapped up in the magic that is the holiday season. I'm like a five year old usually. I love the holidays, I get very excited over shopping for gifts for other people and I love holiday movies. I'm a cheeseball. But this year I just couldn't get into it. I got very ill just a few weeks before the holidays and didn't get my house cleaned, which means we didn't decorate at all. Both my boyfriend and I had to work very odd hours (which I'm NOT complaining about) but it sucked the life out of the both of us. The magic was just kind of sucked out of it this year. And in the middle of all that, I was very depressed. This is something that happens with me sometimes. Everything in the world can be absolutely perfect but I will be so depressed I won't want to get out of bed. It's exhausting. And that makes me more depressed.
So while I was beyond worried about my mom, and while the time off from work was more stressful than relaxing, I was kind of happy just to stay home and hole up in my apartment for a week.
I was not ready to go back to work yesterday, but it was nice to get out of the house. And it was a nice excuse to wear this awesome dress I appliqued! (Original post with the owl tee shirt HERE and original post with the dress HERE) I loved the dress, but last week during one of my half-asleep dreams where I think about what I can do to stuff in my wardrobe I actually dreamed about putting this applique on this dress. I'm not counting this as a "Dream Outfit" post but it's pretty funny that I saw this in a dream before putting it together. I've had this owl applique floating around my scrap bin for a while and I absolutely LOVE it on this dress!
My denim jacket will be making several appearances in upcoming outfit posts, just in case you get bored of it. I love this thing. It's warm and I wear it almost all the time. Like, even when I'm in my PJs. I love it so much that I had to go back and get another one because I'd purchased this one for a project and now couldn't bear to cut it up.
I hope this hasn't been a little too TMI for you. I don't talk about my depression problems or insecurities on here because I know that a few people (my mom, my bosses, my co-workers, customers and my family) read this blog sometimes, but that doesn't make my struggles any less real. I also like to try (TRY BEING THE KEY WORD HERE) to have just a little professionalism with this blog because in the future, if I do self-publish or something, people I don't know will be reading this.
Anyway, before you start thinking all things are doom and gloom, I am staying positive. Here are some of the good things that have happened to me this week:
- Made the Dean's List at school meaning I've had to maintain a GPA of 3.5 or better. This also means that, like my refusing to look at a scale that resulted in my losing weight and being less weird about numbers, my trick of not looking at my GPA or grades is working.
- Sewed some awesome new things this week.
- Downloaded the new MCR songs on 1/8 - Kiss the Ring is my favorite of the two.
- Thrifted an AWESOME black velvet pirate coat.
- My birthday is on Sunday. I don't really want to be 27, but I do like the idea of birthdays.
- Proved to my mom that I CAN keep a cool head under pressure
- By the way, did I mention I made the Dean's List? HA! HA HA HA!
PS: I have been cheating on you with Tumblr. If you want to follow me, I'm at http://megsraggededge.tumblr.com. I'm such a tumblr addict...