OOTD: I Don't Know Where I'm Going....

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Chucks: Marshalls 7 years ago, Sweater: Philly Aids Thrift

Dress: Handmade/Me, Hair clip: Handmade/Me

I could not get my face to cooperate with this OOTD.

I love belting these Lisettes. It doesn't always work, but for the most part I think I look super cute and much more pulled together than I usually do. I feel better about how I look, which is nice (because sometimes I think I look a little too casual, if you know what I mean).

I didn't think I'd ever say this but I'm a little sick of my chucks right now. I cleaned out my closet, which means I only have these and my black chucks to wear every day until boot weather comes. I can't wear my Toms until I find a way to make them smell less disgusting, so having worn chucks every single day for the last two months I'm ready to be done with them. I've been eyeing up saddle shoes or some cute oxfords for a nice fall shoe that is both cute and comfortable (and looks good for work). I can't do ballet flats, they don't seem to like to stay on my feet.

I'm loving the song "Do It Anyway" by Ben Folds Five because they put Fraggles in the video and that makes me happy, but the song in general is something that I can relate to, right now. There is a line in which they say something along the lines of "if you're paralyzed by a voice in your head it's the standing still that should be scaring you instead- do it anyway". That is how I feel right now about the secret project, I guess. I have been working on this so hard for so long and I'm so worried that it's not good or worth it or going to amount to anything. I worry that it's going to be criticized or ignored entirely, and these can be really gripping fears but it's never been my belief that you should give in to fear. My mom raised me to honestly believe that as long as you tried, that was what was important. Because by not doing something you'll just never know. So I keep working on this secret project, and I've started to tell people. I've started to open up about it and talk about it and ask opinions on it. I'm still not ready to tell you guys here, yet, but I will. Soon.

In the mean time, look up that song because it's a great song. If you need a little push, and you're as easily affected by  music as I seem to be, this is a great song that will definitely pick you up. And don't worry- it's not as screamy or emo as MCR or the other music I've put on here. It's relatively normal.

Tomorrow I'm venturing into Center City despite having zero dollars and still feeling kinda blah. I'm going because it's going to be beautiful out and I just cannot miss my favorite season in the city. In all honesty, I know what I would really like to do tomorrow, but it's impossible because the person I used to do these things with lives far away and I don't see them anymore. I would like to get up early, jump in a car with a cup of coffee and a singing buddy, and I'd like to drive through the mountains blasting MCR songs. Alas. We can't always get what we want. An afternoon at Philly Aids Thrift and maybe a walk past Penn's Landing would be just as nice, even if it is alone.

Wow, that sounded a little sad and it wasn't supposed to. I'm not sad. I'm going to go work some more on my secret project and listen to my newly downloaded Ben Folds Five song and enjoy this beautiful weather. I hope you're doing something just as nice.

-Meghan